happiness is build with our hand

2005-11-15T18:48:00.000-08:00

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz

this is done when my mood is better , why still flirting around sia -_-
anyway mood had been not really good recently my sis feel like bring her daughter back to our hse but there is another small baby.. really wonder wad to do??

whu am i

2005-11-13T22:19:00.000-08:00

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.Your risk of cheating is high. You can't resist desire and lust.You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/

SIghx

2005-11-04T20:15:00.000-08:00

blogging here again , i broke up wit her le i feel so lonely and life so boring, really love her so much til i so sad and tired..
been very down recently already and my sis having a depression now after her daughter is admitted to hosptial due to yellowish, seeing her shine on the ultra violent light , seeing her after go home keep sleeping , didnt drink much milk.. keep wanting to get the baby off baby and force her to drink , her husband and her husband's mum see le like veri fattened up.. sighx.. jus hope that she can be alright soon.. cos i remember seeing my biggest sis having similar case when hse give birth to the first child..
i feel i kinda scare tkd , why? all my wkend had been spending over on tkd , fri night , sat morning , sat night and sun morning.. its seem so tired, alt its been a passion i had but i feel its a committement now.. had / must to go , if din go then no one take care of class.. sometimes its so stress taking class alone they always fly my kite tell me they cant or wad made myself stress mux handle kids in diff age and level.. now i know how good is henderson wit so many helper around.. alt not everyone is good in coaching there but at least they try their best in it.. and most impt there is ppl to coaching together . chat together and to complain together wit me..
alt i had try to accept them , they are way too far from wad i had in past..

sighx

2005-11-01T20:51:00.000-08:00

dunno is happy , sad or wad
yesterday i asked what she want to go on til 2nd mth or break now she no reply
i said i wum force her , yet at night when she still no reply i asked her again
she said even if we try , we oso cant have the feeling we expect bah.. choose to give up..
wondering she feeling hurt? still can go johor today..

Wondering why i always the one hurt , being seriously oso cant mehx.. rather be flirt man , cannot then cannot lor dun fuck care of anything.. like sop oso lidat , like her oso lidat.. guess i am really not meant to go into relationship bah , be monk suan le..

sometime i guess i am not fit to be a sport man , everytime i feel sad i do a thing that sport man shouldnt do , know it will affect our life and stamina but i still do that.. I AM SUX.. CH WAKE UP!! no GF will DIE? NO!!!

yox

2005-10-29T08:52:00.000-07:00

HI ITS GAME OVER KO !!

thurs

2005-10-27T23:13:00.000-07:00

its night time once again , today got malay beat a chinese guy sia , too late to know they end up 4 beaten one person.. hope similar thing wum happen again arbo we chinese sure step in de.. if not sure tio eat by them in camp de haha..

learn a lesson today by joice ,
think of what good things and hard work she did in this relationship
rather then think of those things she cant do or not ready to do de things in this relationship
really have more things to learn in relationship , cos i am born to be a good frenx , a lousier lover.. mux jiayou to love her and treat her better..

Wed nitex

2005-10-26T21:38:00.000-07:00

starting to blog abt yesterday , wake up since 5.30am wit my mood so blur wit my mp3 wit me , walk to mrt and take train to tamperine , sia la 50mins journey so boring.. meet stanley sir they all at 7.15am and later walk to pasir ris sec, student still having their assembly so we had to actually wait outside for it to finish.. aft that we process into the hall , when we change into our full gi , those ger was like so di siao said WOWwwwwwww haha.. under my hand was 30 gers, they are veri san Ba , but at the same time time they learn the technique fast oso.. remember a ger like to play spiderman ar spiderman , superman ar superman , bat man ar batman tt game.. haha.. another fat ger said when guy bully u lidat where got use , slap him give him 2 kick can le.. then i asked her u try kicking lor.. she cant kick , then all laugh at her.. gers are noisy and playful but they are oso fun and interesting at times..

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Today my niece is born today , by my smallest sister.. quite cute de, can see that she is veri girlish type.. wonder things that i shoulnt do , am i not good to dear dear ? know its difficult to accept the fact and let ppl know i am her bf.. its been one mth , isnt that no long to secure her feelings toward this relationship? i gave her a testimontial said her last day of work and i will support her , love ya dear, guess she is not ready to let her frenx know she got a bf bah..

1) when she said her frenx working in courts , when we go in she seem tense and want to get out earli

2) she dun seem to approve my testimontial wit dear or loveya inside

3)her status is still single

wonder when can i change her way of behavior , izzit i din treat her good enough? maybe bah , really hope she feel more into the relationship.. tell you a stupid thing i had done , i buy a packet of sweets jus to give her a kiss on her mouth , not intend to be long.. she rejected it , know she is not ready , but jus a kiss is that so diff? maybe i love her , i reallyhave to wait.. wait for her to get ready for this relationship and learn to show her care toward me.. no reply from her in Sms today , jus hope she is fine..

happy day

2005-10-24T23:00:00.000-07:00

Firstly blog abt yesterday , jus learn self defence.. its a tatic similar to unarm combat but its for those none tkd ppl , quite fun and interesting.. news about grading fee going up soon on april made me want to go for my 2nd dan on jan , hope i can make it sia as i am only familar wit my taekgue and my koryo seem quite unstable.. mux jiayou le.. after training susponse to meet dear de , she fly my kite sia. was so disappointed til she msg me dear sorry next wkend she pei me from morning til evening.. sia la wad wrong wit me i seem to soften aft i see that , first time sia CH , hope she really treasure her as i guess i really love her alot.. 1st gf that i bear to spend money on and treat her better then she treat me haha..

today start my day so boring , working up late as usual and rush for work.. lunch time play poke wit my frenx and i lost almost $6 wept wept.. after lunch msg dear ask her wether she free bah today or she going training , she agree sia.. so happy!! i expect her to say she going for training and end up she agree to go out wit me , we went to sakae at Lot 1

3 plates of fried tofu
2 plates of Kani tempura(fried Crab sticks)
1 plate of salmon sushi
2 plates of kani Maki
1 plate of potato croquette
2 crab stick sushi
1 egg sushi
1 plate of edamame
2 Chawamushi
1 plate of fried Maki
1 plate of Gyoza
1 octopus Sushi
1 Soft shell crab hand roll
2 Mochi Icecream

SO happy today cos its me and dear dear de first mth , anyway shall stop here tmr have to wake up at 5plus to go go pasir ris sec to teach self defence.. oink oink..

yawn

2005-10-22T00:50:00.000-07:00

Yawn , after training at jalan membina , long time since they really run and do physical le so shiok to see them so piah and tired for training haha.. today dear dear is sick , nv go work , she forever de still dare to tell me she want to go training , heng her boss stay nearby arbo i oso dunno how to stop her from going to work.. hope she will be fine soon , so i can go meet her tmr or had to postpone to mon , wonder she will choose training or go out wit me lehx?

Buying her the adidas kwon shoe $126 , wow so ex but she had to pay $1 for it , after simon case guess team 2 wum dare to buy shoe for people again right? hahah.. after i buy le guess i had to eat bread or eat cook house food le ,
$370 - 126 = $244 - Kwon Shoe
$244 - 50 = $196 - MRT Concession
$196 - 140= $56 - Internet , Hp Bills
$56 - 40/60 = $0 - Bus

Hahaha budget month.. but joice said de right
got love drink water oso full
hope so sia haha
hope know she really like it
so nvm treat as diet

gonna go slp le tmr still got class at 8plus am

Tiring Night

2005-10-20T01:01:00.000-07:00

Tiring night after training , blogging out my feeling..
scolded my student due to them learning the aerobic slow.. 2 is jus yellow tip..
seriously this time i feel i am wrong le.. scold them when its only their 1st aerobic lesson , once again i prove i am useless cant handle stress.. jus becos demo is 13th and i pushed them tt much..

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i should say i still havent get off my mind of henderson , the good and bad things i had in past..
Forget the Past and Work towards the future
CH Jiayou bah!!

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Derrick today point out that there is students of jalan membina wanted to leave xtreme Tkd cos they feel they are neglected during training , alt i am not in charge of those colour belt but i feel i am partly in fault too i din take note of them being neglected.. guess this time after derrick talk to us , i really feel i had waked up and its time to change..
1) dun be too strict toward student (time to be after warnings still have to be lar)
2)work harder toward my lesson plan (dun let student feel boring in training)
==> dun always do the same training repeatedly
3)dun always feel xtreme tkd lousy compare to henderson
4)be concentrate in coaching in the wider way
==> dun coach this person and forget there is still other student in this class..

CH its time to work harder for myself le , know your mistake and work on it man..

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Secondly i feel i must change de is my attitude towards my family (mux be better), alt i had changed better but still got room for improvement.. lastly dun stress dear dear , let her slowly take her time in this relationship.. make her happy and be most xing fu de dear dear..

God Really hope i can do this things well , i had been slacking and heck care of alot of things le.. its time to wake up and work harder for my future le.. jiayou

4 more days to dear dear and my 1 mth le , shall go out with her this coming sunday =)

2005-10-17T22:38:00.000-07:00

Jus got the news of bukit ho swee branch having a demostration at kim seng cc 13Nov , having our first training on last sat, made kai hwee pissed off by cancelling her aerobic that is created 1/4 and choosed to use last time STF de aerobic.. cos during half of the lesson ,she can still go and dance her hiphop sound, when we need to settle stuff by that day itself..
aft lesson went to tiong bahru market wit my student , and after that we went tiong park to play merry go round , sometime i feel am i a instructor? always so playful ? serious de time over serious?

Today is a boring day again , at office slack and sleep til lunch time and its poker time , played 5 person Dai Di , keep on winning and become king and queen haha no kick manx.. then go back home download my movies , dark water , the skeleton key , the great raid and four brothers..
download so many movies want to ask bee come and watch one day , arbo everytime go movie my ns pay will dry ar($370) and end up pocket one big hole.. know she like to watch movie but hope my small screen good enough bah..

so happy

2005-10-14T09:59:00.000-07:00

its the first time she call me dear
and i am so high now cant fall asleep keke

wohooo

2005-10-13T20:47:00.000-07:00

WOW its thur today , one more day to weekend already.. can rest and slack at home , rather then wake up at 6am to go to my camp and slack.. suddenly feel so boring with little people on and chat today , time seem to pass very slowly. had a mac coupon that day buy one extra value meal and you get to get either apple pie, sundae, fish mc dippers , filet o fish , cheese burger or chicken burger free.. but i would rather choose the breakfast one got hotcake, sausage mc muffin with egg, egg muffin, sausage mc muffin and filet o fish haha, cos i can eat alot for mac breakfast yum yum.. gonna buy this coming sat , since there is no lesson for the wk after grading , which mean i dun have go wake up so earli to go boon keng rc this sat.. =)
so happy that there is break after grading , as for me taekwondo now had become something i had to go , for the student to improve no longer like past cos i go becos i love that sport.. jus hope to see my student improve bit by bit , so that i can lessen my scolding , sometimes we coaches really dont want to scold student , but things just cant get inside their head without scolding.. WHY!! really hope my student can understand our hardwork as times go..

sianx

2005-10-12T08:05:00.000-07:00

Life so boring is SCDF , specially today a rather slack day without my enciks
one of them went for the baton instructor course and another one went for operation
just hope he is fine and come back to our unit soon after he recovered..
without them its totally like no pressure in working , can take my time slack then do my work.
this week is a nice week , cos my taekwondo class having break for one week after their grading and i can rest , finally.. joice blog had this question , she so love tkd recently cos of wad>? TKD? Frenx ? i guess i had same question , and our answer is the same.. its frenx , its the bunch of close frenx that we had together , the goal to go forward together.. now i no longer have the feeling in improving myself to another level , cos i lost the feeling le.. hope to find it soon..

yox

2005-10-11T22:03:00.000-07:00

jus started o blog once again ,
its been sometimes since i blog again
i am currently in a relationship wit bee siang
a ger i know in irc afew yrs back
we been together for 2 wks
have happy times but sometimes i feel her so cold towards me
maybe she is not ready in relationship
she had break off with her ex last time due to her not ready in relationship
like feel odd when we hold hand or hug in public or anywhere
wondering how would i do help her overcome this prob..
jus hope i can solve it asap

Tonight is a boring night , jus hope it pass soon

testing

2005-10-11T08:01:00.000-07:00

Yiting jus taught me how to change the blog skin haha so mafan sia
but thanx teacher ahaha